Sunday, December 07, 2008

miscellaneous

Can I be a miscellaneous 
in and out 
up and down
pleasurable
just for now, we're cool, I thoroughly enjoy hanging with you
miscellaneous
no commitment or big talks to get through
just hang, chill, do what we do
living 
today 
with you, tomorrow with who?
Can i be a miscellaneous
be not mistaken 
the question is not up in the air 
or open to discussion just
looming on my waves 
tempting- me
to accept the proposition 
of possibility 
to be rated as I choose
give receive or loose
confusion 
categorized in the folder marked appropriately
miscellaneous
the bright is light appealing at a distance 
what is this, what could it be 
miscellaneously 
more or less worthy
according to me 
I proceed, relay, ok 
not for others to say
only I may classify me 
miscellaneous
if I choose to be.  

Sunday, November 30, 2008

about change

Last I wrote it was change
how change isn't easy
change hurts
but if the old behaviors remain
has change occurred
if old behaviors remain
progress is almost nonexistent
still its not a simple task 
to alter and revamp those things set in stone
water takes lifetimes to smooth a rock
patience
water has much patience and persistence
the very attributes needed when handling shaping molding
submitting to change
the alteration of self is a necessity 


Saturday, November 29, 2008

Patients

These people!  I got the shift I wanted for all time.  I think...?  I now work thursday- days, friday and saturday 7pm to 7am.  Tonight particularly these patients do not seem to want to sleep.  Sleep man.  Sleep and let me do my thing... 

As if tomorrow morning will not be shock enough.. This will be the first weekend I've worked where Jill did not come in in the morning because she is off.  I don't know how my system will react to not seeing her at 6am.  She brightens up my day.  I guess next weekend.  Anyway, I've successfully written this blog without a patient ringing for my assistance.  Damn ! I jinxed it. Gotta go. 

Monday, September 22, 2008

9.19.08-in progress

Life changing, rearranging 
barely speaking
without grievances but important
I suppose
Talk   talk speak read write communicate life
changes
world's shift
priorities grow shrink come to a stand still 
its change its 
atoms light colliding forming reforming becoming new from the old
starting afresh
banking on what's left
next
putting the pieces back together reconnect 
pick up the craps of the old being 
i'm needing to embrace 
change